Still Point Arts Quarterly (Food & Memory) | reprinted from Ruminate Magazine's 2019 Readers Notes • December 2020

The Bachelors

Sometimes he took us to Original Joe’s where we watched the line cooks move fast pans over the flames from our counter stools. Otherwise it was Tommy’s Joynt on Van Ness or the Jewish deli on Polk where I’d order a block of cream cheese wedged between two halves of a bagel. For my father: corned beef on rye, a little yellow mustard, but otherwise dry.

Tiny Seed Literary Journal (Through the Eyes of Nature) • November 2020

California Poppies

Do not ask when we will open, our blooming like tides, cannot be hastened. If we seem as weeds where there was once lawn, don’t pull up. Wait. These petals will unfold like crepe paper cups each holding a golden sun.

Redwood Writers Wish You Were Here 2nd place contest winner | Travelers' Tales 2007 Solas Awards silver category winner • October 2020

Romantic Getaway

Most of the beach bars were boarded up for the season, their stacked plastic chairs huddled against the wind. Walking in wet sand, I shirked the stares of a passing stranger and sulked. I longed for shared laughter with my lover and missed pouring Portuguese over my tongue.

Under the Gum Tree (Those Who Wander) • October 2020

The Nature of Beginnings

During the summer of 1999, despite an impending world economic crisis and the speculative doom of Y2K, I quit my job to hit the open road. Whatever contents of my Humboldt County cottage weren’t sold at a yard sale were transferred to storage. I even gave away the cat. I packed the hatchback of my blue ‘82 Datsun B210 with what I believed to be a few road trip essentials . . .

The Rumpus.net: Voices on Addiction (Memoir Monday selection) • September 2020

Fallen

I’ve grown accustomed to my brother’s rants as well as his delusions of grandeur. In five years he’ll own ten properties! He’ll become a millionaire! His obsession with money is matched only by his impulsivity. Two months before high school graduation, he had an epiphany: all he ever wanted, he realized, was love.

Sunset Sunrise: Redwood Writers Anthology • September 2020

Hope Against Hope

"I could just close my eyes and sleep," says my mother-in-law. She rubs at her temples then scoots back in her recliner to watch the evening news. When my wife and her brother took her shopping for a shower chair, the simple act of shuffling from car to store wore her out. Now, when her friends invite her to the movies or for a walk she says, "I don’t think I’m up for that."

Hypertext Review Contest Finalist | 2021 Best American Essays Nomination • August 2020

Politeness Will Not Protect You

Each of us showed up with specific vulnerabilities informed by our own life experiences, but we all shared one common denominator: a pervasive fear of rape. Self-defense introduced a new discourse, one that challenged the myth of provocation and the concept of muscular strength as a primary measure of power. It dismantled long-held presumptions about male omnipotence.

The Dewdrop (Isolation Shorts) • May 2020

Porch Time

As oceans-full of sky unleash spring storms to wash away drought it’s difficult to picture this earth parched, now wet with fresh bark from a pile by the barn. Even the sheep sound unsettled, their patterned movement between pastures disrupted. The lambs bleat—a call-and-response—to bridge the distance. Always after it rains there is a stillness. We creatures tune in, listening while we shelter: the drip of oak leaf onto gravel, the swish of a wing. . .

About Place Journal (Practices of Hope) • May 2020

Please Don’t Climb: Controversy at the Heart of Australia

It is impossible, upon visiting Australia, to resist the allure of Uluru. The world’s largest monolith, also known as Ayers Rock, towers more than 1,000 feet above an arid desert plain in the so-called Red Centre of the island continent. For years, anyone determined to scale the massif could clamber up a mile-long route, assisted by a chain handrail bolted into the sandstone.

Halfway Down the Stairs (50th Issue: Milestones) • March 2020

Late Bloomer

Mosquito bites. That’s what my older brother called them, taunting me the day I got my first “training” bra: two flat cotton triangles sewn to a thin strap, which clasped around my torso with a single hook. My prepubescent days playing shirtless like a boy, unbridled, were behind me. I wondered about the womanly form my body would blossom into.

Toho Journal (Toho Online: Place) • December 2019

Church Street Beat

Yes, I remember that railroad flat we shared on the third floor, the one with the chandeliers and dumbwaiter closet and wall heater with no heat. In my narrow room with its blue desk and single bed, you sat between my knees while I braided your hair. We listened to the rhythmic rocking of the gay lovers making love above and the alley echo of the boy below...

Cagibi • December 2019

Postcard from the Outback

We’ve detoured inland after miles of monotony. Nearing the Pilbara the terrain transforms into a rusty, rocky landscape rich in iron ore. We set up camp near Mt. Nameless—an insult to the local Aboriginal people who have inhabited the region for at least 40,000 years. Jarndunmunha, as they’ve named it, is Western Australia’s second tallest mountain.

Discovered catalog: Emerging Literary Artists • December 2019

Love, Unconditional (excerpt)

I hadn’t seen my grandparents for nearly a year when I planned to visit Nana one last time. In mid-February I bought a plane ticket for early March. “You might not make it,” my father warned. He knew dying does not cater to the will of the living. I did not yet understand that death offers no second chances. One week before my scheduled arrival, Nana was gone.

Bohemian/Pacific Sun (cover story) • December 2019

Finding Hanukkah in the Happy Holidays

"No fair!" a friend complained. "You get stuff for eight days and we only have one." While I knew that Santa did not exist, I found myself pining for what he delivered down her chimney. The pack of synthetic yarn ribbons I received, which frayed like my frizzy hair, could not compare to the Barbie DreamHouse towering under her tree.

Birdland Journal (theme: change) • October 2018

Firestorm

Monday, October 9, 2017 my 92-year-old grandmother his family of seven a single mom with two young boys / awakened by a tree crashing wind howling, dog barking smoke alarm blaring a neighbor banging frantically on the front door / got out of bed at 1:30, 2:30, 3:30 AM opened the curtains & saw ashes floating...

Noyo River Review | Georgetown Review Prose Finalist • August 2018

Double Life (excerpt)

My father knew his parents had speculated about the prodigal son in San Francisco. The letter he sent would have put their suspicions to rest. He hadn’t gone into all the whys and wherefores leading to the decision. Just that the conception was an accident that could have happened to anyone.

Origins Journal (Borders) | VanderMey Prize Semi-Finalist • March 2016

Wildish Woman

It was at the end of another season in Alaska when Jessica Eden confronted a peculiar creature. Each year, the biologist conducted field studies in the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge, a region so vast and unmarked there are no roads or human trails. Only animal tracks.

Creative Nonfiction (Making A Living) | Black Warrior Review Nonfiction Finalist • September 2015

Crisis

Facilitating classroom discussions at junior and senior high schools, my associate and I fielded the usual questions—Doesn’t a girl ask for it if she’s dressed like a slut? Why would a man let himself be raped? Don’t most people lie about being assaulted?—as if we hadn’t heard these assumptions dozens of times.

The Monthly Winter Essay Contest • December 2014

Missing: Big Brother

A few days before my sixteenth birthday, I returned home to find my mother's note on the kitchen counter: "M has joined the Moonies. I've gone to save him." Images of shaved heads and saffron robes danced in my mind as I mistakenly pictured my older brother chanting Hare Krishna.

South Loop Review (Pushcart Nomination) • October 2013

What It's Like

She said beauty is what saved her, time and again: arias, flowers, food arranged artfully on a plate. She was happiest ordering Chardonnay at a museum café overlooking a French garden. Or going to the symphony, the ballet, the opera, or a play. Beauty is what rescued my mother from a childhood bereft of any.